Well, this evening has been enjoyable. I ended up in a long chat with Steve & Carl, it lasted until 2am, I don’t know how I stayed up so late.
The conversation was mostly spent talking about ghosts and the upcoming meet up in York that we are having. When we were talking about ghosts, it started to make me feel a bit on edge, my mind went into overdrive and I kept on looking around the room to make sure nothing was going to creep up on me. Don’t get me wrong, the thought of ghosts do scare me, but it also excites me because you don’t know if you will come across one. I am a firm believer that ghosts do exist in some form, but they’re not as bad as people make them out to be. I have previously spoken about one experience of ghosts when I was younger, it certainly scared me, between you and me, it made cry. I was only eight years old at the time, so I didn’t really understand, and I always thought ghosts were going to cause me harm. As I have grown up, the thought of ghosts hasn’t plagued me, the only time it does is when I let my mind go haywire. I think this fear of ghosts is natural, we all have fears, it doesn’t matter what it is, we all have them.
After a couple of hours went by, Carl needed to go to bed because he was tired from his long day at work.
When Carl left, myself and Steve started talking about many random topics. We ended up getting on to the topic of my birth and how it has affected since I had my case dismissed for medical negligence. I have felt very broken up ever since this happened, it isn’t easy to accept, how can I feel okay with something, when I don’t know the truth surrounding my birth? I have to go through life not knowing what happened, it couldn’t be one of these events that just happen. I have been through my medical records and it clearly states that I was starved of oxygen, then after that, I was given too much oxygen, which means it caused my brain injury. I have had this looked at by several doctors and they have all said that it contributed to my brain bleed & tumor. I know I shouldn’t dwell on this, but I have the right to the truth, and no matter how many times I ask the hospital, they end up ignoring the question and chat on about something I didn’t ask them about.
Anyhow, I don’t want to ramble on about that, you will find out more when I publish a book about it, plus it is 3:30am and I am getting extremely tired. As I say it is late, so I am going to rest my head for a few hours. I have got a long day tomorrow because I want to write notes about my medical records, this will allow me to start making sense of this whole situation.
The morning started out with a light dusting of snow, yes we have snow again, it is meant to be spring and we are sat in the middle of bleeding snowstorm. What has the world coming to?
Anyhow, enough of the weather discussion, it is such a boring subject anyway, but if you haven’t seen snow before then here is a picture.
Light Dusting of Snow
So, it was coming up to 12pm and I needed to go out with Laura to get some shopping because I was running out of food.
While we were walking to the shop, the snow was battering us from every direction, it kept on going into my eyes which annoyed me, but I had to put up with it because you can’t walk along with your eyes shut, or else you will walk into everything.
After a short walk, we were finally at Tesco. I was glad to be in the warm, it was freezing outside and it felt like my fingers were going to drop off. As we were walking around the shop, I noticed something weird, it was a jar of bacon jam, what a weird combination of flavors, each for their own I guess. I will leave a picture below of the bacon jam, then every bacon lover can spread this on their toast.
When the mid afternoon came, I needed to ring the mobile phone company yet again. This was meant to be an open and shut case, but wasn’t I wrong! They refused to help, and passed the blame by passing me from one person to the next. I haven’t known a company like it, even when I spoke to managers, they refused to help and decided to try to talk over me, instead of hearing what I had to say. After being passed around to eight advisers and two manager call backs, I got passed to a nice lady from the retention’s team, she listened to everything I had to say, and she also understood how badly I have been treated. I couldn’t believe that I found someone who understood my point, and the best thing was that she explained things in simple terms for me, which was a big help because I suffer from learning difficulties.
So, with that said, I need to fill out a complaint form and request a callback from someone who will look over the situation correctly. I hope this problem gets sorted soon because my patience is starting to run very thin, it isn’t fair that they have treated me like this, after all I pay my bill, and in all honesty I don’t take kindly to someone talking to me like dirt.
Anyhow, the evening is now here and I am completely exhausted. I have never known a situation to drain me like this before, my shoulder and neck are aching like anything, it feels like someone is stabbing me in the neck with a rusty knife.
Anyway, I think it is time to sign off, I have had enough for today. I hope everyone stays well and I hope your dreams are filled with warming love.