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MilkyStones, and Overwhelmed

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I didn’t know how start today’s blog, it has been the same old day really. The day started out with a walk to the post office to send off my iPhone 4S, such a heartbreaking moment, that iPhone has been a lifeline to me over the years, how sad does that sound? I had no choice, but to get rid of it, it was way out of its warranty and I wasn’t going to risk it breaking down on me, and it also had no insurance which made it more risky.

When I arrived at the post office, there was the obvious two mile queue with people waiting. I always hate it when it is like this because you end up standing there for ages, and by the time you get to the front of the queue you forget what you were there for!
After thirty minutes had passed, I was finally at the front of the queue. While the woman was processing my package, she noticed that the postage had to be reduced by 50% because I had a prepaid packet, this meant the company I was sending it to had contracts in place with the royal mail that reduced the costs for the consumers who send packages to them. So, instead of me paying £6 in postage, I ended up only paying £3, you can’t turn your nose up at that!

After I finished at the Post Office, I needed to pick up some shopping from Tesco, lucky for they are both in the same building, as you walk out of one, you are in they other.
I only needed to get some yogurts, somehow I ran out, I don’t know how it happened, well okay, I do, but I have been really hungry lately. As I reached the yogurts, I noticed that they didn’t have any of the usual ones I buy, which wasn’t good because I had to buy different ones, and the only smooth yogurts they had were Milky Bar. These were no good to me because they contain a high fat content, the last time I had loads of these, I ended up in hospital with gallstones, and believe me, it isn’t a walk in the park because it is like going through childbirth for weeks.

So, with that said, I had no choice, but to buy these yogurts, it will only be until tomorrow, and I am sure it will be okay (wasn’t I wrong).
Anyhow, with shopping in hand, all I needed to do was to walk home. I normally love these short walk, but I hate them when my ankle and knees ache, it always feels like someone is sticking needles in me or kicking me really hard.
After a short, but lengthy time elapsed walk, I was finally home. I could finally stick my feet up, and have something to eat.

As I mentioned earlier, I brought some Milky Bar yogurts. After I ate four of the yogurts, it started to give me pain across my side and gallbladder. I honestly regret buying these yogurts because this happens every time and I get massive spasms through abdomen. These symptoms are normal for someone with a gallbladder that cannot process high volumes of fat, or a gallbladder that contains gallstones. Over the years I have had many issues with my gallbladder, and I remember one occasion when I was hospitalized because it made me paralyzed. Some people may disbelieve that, but you won’t know how it feels until you go through the same problem.
Anyway, to be brief, I am regretting eating those yogurts. They have caused me many pains all day, and yes I know it was self-inflicted, but I had no other choice, if you want to blame anyone, then blame Tesco for not stocking my usual wildlife yogurts … Okay, okay, I can’t blame Tesco, to be honest I wasn’t thinking straight, if I took more time to think it over, I would have found a more suitable solution.

So, putting the pain aside, I have had a surprising day. While I was doing a web search on my book, I found that my books were now listed on a big UK retailers digital download store, this was a massive surprise to me because I didn’t think they were good enough to be listed on well-known retailer websites, maybe they will surprise me more by stocking the paperback editions of my books, who knows?

The other news I wanted to talk about, was how much I am honored by the outstanding responses I have received since I made my eating disorder story public in UK national media. I was meant to mention this some time ago, but after the story went public, I was inundated with positive messages of support, it blew me away because I didn’t think anyone would care about the story. Well, anyway, to be brief. The story has gone a long way, not only for me, but for suffers and those who have lost loved ones through the disorder. I receive many messages a day, either offering support or from suffers wanting advice, and that is from both genders of many ages. I have even had messages from families who have lost loved ones, and they offer nothing, but support. I have full respect for each person that messages me, and no matter how bad I feel, I still go out of my way to give them a personal reply.
So, I want to thank each person who has contacted me over the last year, it has been a lifeline to me over the last year, and I hope I will carry on inspiring each person that messages me.

Anyhow, on to the rest of my day. I can certainly say after today’s news, it has left me feeling overwhelmed, it may seem weird, but this keeps me thinking positive because I am helping the world in my own “little way.”

So, on that good note, it is time for me to sign off. I hope you all have a wonderful day, and may your dreams be long & peaceful.

Until tomorrow,

Marc.

Sunday Walk, and Shops

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Today started out with a shopping trip to Tesco, this trip was necessary because I ran out of yogurts and kitchen roll, so, as they say when needs must and all of that rubbish.
While I was walking to the shop, I could feel my left eye pulling, this means that the scar in my eye was swollen again. I always hate when this happens, my eyesight becomes blurred and worse of all it stings for a few days.

I decided to go to the shop by myself this time, I wanted some time to myself because it gives me a chance to clear my mind, we all need time to ourselves occasionally. I would have invited mum or Laura to come, but they were all still in bed, might I add that when I left the house, it was 10am, I think they’re taking this day of rest stuff too seriously, you don’t see me having a lie in, I was awake at 8am, lazy sods, only kidding!

Anyhow, I got the shopping and it was time to walk home, this was the most awkward part of my journey because I had to carry the shopping home, it was one of those times where you’d wish you had more than two arms.
During the walk home I got a call from my sister, she was asking how far away from home because dad wanted to give me a lift home, I denied this offer because I was on the main road, and to be honest it wasn’t that far from home. So, with that said I carried on walking home. After five minutes had passed, I spotted my dad driving towards me, as he got closer, he pointed to me that he was going to stop in the car park nearby to give me a lift home.

Anyway, after a short ride, I arrived back home. I was starving, it felt like I hadn’t ate for ages. My stomach has been playing up recently, I can eat and eat, and I will still feel hungry afterwards, maybe everything is starting to go in the right direction for me.
So, Anyhow, I sat down to have my lunch, it wasn’t much just plain rice with brown sauce. I know this is a weird combination, but it was better than rotting my stomach with hot curry sauce. I think K would tell me off if I did because she noticed every time I have spicy curry sauce it makes me feel poorly, so I stuck by her advice and had something less spicy.

The rest of my afternoon was spent resting and watching the back of my eyelids. I know, I am lazy, but my eye was starting to hurt and I needed to sleep off the pain.
When I woke up, my eye still felt sore, I had to push past the pain because I had today’s blog to write, and I didn’t want to miss any days out.

So, with that said, I think it is time for me to sign off. The rest of my day will only be spent resting or eating, maybe I will do them at the same time, or I might do them one at a time, can’t overload the brain, you know what us men are like with multitasking. Before I go, I will leave you with this short joke.

How many balls of string would it take to reach the moon?
Just one if it’s long enough!

Until tomorrow,

Marc.

My Story Goals

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Today has certainly been a mixed bag of tricks, energy has started to creep back up and I have finally put more thought into doing an updated story about my eating disorder.

If you didn’t know, I had my eating disorder story published last year, it had some success, and it certainly helped me slowly recover. I will be the first to admit that I haven’t fully recovered from my eating disorder, but I have to look at the positives, during this year I have published four books and gained much respect from people that were inspired by my courage to carry on and to fight.
The reason for publishing my story was to highlight my struggles and to help other people see that an eating disorder isn’t isolated to females.

When it comes to doing an updated story, I want to highlight that I still struggle, but I have also progressed in my life. As I said before, I have published four books, it has given me a new focus in my life. My weight has gone up by two stone, I am now four pounds away from nine stone, which is a huge achievement for me.
The response to my story was outstanding, so many people were leaving me good luck messages and positive words to inspire me through my struggles, of course there were a few negative comments, but that didn’t phase me because I know that you will get bad comments no matter what it is.
I was surprised by some of the positive comments because many people said they wanted to give me a hug, which was really nice to see that there are nice people out there.
Anyhow, I hope that an updated story will come to light soon, but I will have to wait and see what happens, I can’t expect miracles over night.

So, moving on to the rest of my day. As I said at the start it has been a mixed bag of tricks, the reason for using this term is simply because it has been a mix of emotions. Some of the things that happened I won’t mention because the stuff that has happened isn’t worth mentioning, after all I won’t be giving people the satisfaction of being named when they are complete idiots, and yes I don’t care if I called that person an idiot because that what he is! I am fed up of a certain person causing trouble for my family, when it comes to my mother & father I will defend them to the hill because I have utter respect for them, and I don’t care if they are right or wrong, they are my parents, so tough poo-poo!
Anyway, enough of the rant, it isn’t worth my valuable time, we all need to focus on here and now, rather than the past and people who bring you down.

Skipping ahead to the evening. Mum & Dad went out this evening to darts, which meant we have the house to ourselves and we could throw a wild party, scratch that idea, if we did I think mum would kill us, or hang us from the nearest lamp post, and no, I am not kidding!
So, with the house free and parents out the way, it was time to jam on the guitar and relax. I made Laura laugh tonight, she has been nagging me for a while to play twinkle, twinkle little star on the guitar, every time I refused to play it she would claim I couldn’t play it, so I thought screw it, I played it without looking at the chord sheet to refresh my mind. I said to her are you happy now? She replied well you didn’t have to play it. I thought, what? You have been nagging me for months and that’s all I get? Damn, she is hard to please sometimes. I must teach her how to play the guitar sometime because she has always wanted to learn and I have loads of time to give her to help.

The rest of the evening was spent singing along to music on my iPad, and don’t deny it Laura, you was singing!
So, on that music note, it is time for me to sign off, but before I do, I will leave you with this joke, and this time round it was a joke I made up.

Tesco buys restaurant chain Giraffe, they’re really sticking their neck out now!
Until tomorrow,

Marc.

Break Ineed, Male Anorexia!

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As some of you maybe aware that I occasionally make YouTube videos under the username “iPhoneSnappyGuy” or “AwarenessPictures.com”.

Throughout the time I have published on YouTube I have always suffered with sickness and I have always pushed myself through all the pain but recently I have felt much worse. I know the support helps me get through it all but sometimes it’s harder just to push through the pain.

Recently I have had my story published in many worldwide media outlets. The story covers many aspects of my health condition. The story also highlights my ongoing struggle with anorexia and phobia’s.

If you would like to read my story then the link can be found below.

On a last note, I will be taking a long break from any online media including my blog.

I thank everyone for the support, without you all I wouldn’t be able to get through the day.

Remember Stay Safe!

Male Anorexia Story